Wednesday, January 26, 2011

The kids are coming to visit...

As I type this the kids and Greg are all coming back up to the hospital to see me....

Yep, I had another little episode with some high bp at home yesterday morning. So we had to come directly in. Levi has looked great.... I am sooooo thankful for that. They are running another 24 hour protein check so I think that should be back soon. I may get to leave tonight or most likely if not tonight then tomorrow. We will see, but I did get a great nights sleep here last night. It was wonderful to sleep peacefully.



The kids, Papa and I had a really nice visit. I was able to put little pig tails in Hope's hair. Man, she looks precious with those little curly things on the top of her head.

The 4 older kids and I played a few rounds of Monopoly Deal. That is probably our favorite card game. It is sort of like Monopoly, but has lots of strategy and you can finish a game in 5-30 minutes. It is really fun. Caleb usually beats us all. He is one of the most competitive kids I know.

Anyways, back to being here...

They have me out on the recovery floor and I can hear lots of happy people gushing over babies in the hallways. It has me longing for that happy ending. (Of course I am always longing for that:) But is a little different after losing Samuel. The longing is different. It has me missing Samuel more and in a different way these last few days. I can not help but wonder what my 2 and a half year old baby boy would be doing if he were here now... ohhhhh my sweet little baby boy.

Then at the same time my heart will just burst love for this little boy in my belly. It is a weird but wonderful mix of emotions. I can not wait to, Lord willing tell Levi all about his older precious brother and what a precious gift that each of them is to our family. As much as I know Levi needs to stay put for a bit longer... I am just dying to set eyes on his precious face.

Oh Lord, Please Father protect this precious miracle that you have given to us for the last 30 weeks. Lord, His life is in your loving strong hands. Continue to knit him together, each and every last bit of his body. Lord, carry our family as we wait for him to be born. Give Greg and I wisdom and loving grace as we deal with our other kids and their questions and thoughts with all that is going on. Your will be done Father... make your will our own... Calm our anxious hearts.... may we rest more in you each day! To you alone be the glory!

Much Love friends!

8 comments:

Tonya said...

Amen...

Praying for you sweet Sara. Thankful you were able to rest peacefully. Anxious about your test results. Hoping they might keep you for your peace of mind (is it terrible to hope for that???). Praying Levi has many more days inside of you to continue to grow.

Keep us posted.

Love you! (((HUGS)))

Stacy@hiswaynotmine said...

I'm so sorry, somehow I missed that you had to go back to the hospital. Continuing to pray for you all. Holding you so close to my heart. May God bring His perfect peace to you today. May you rest fully in Him, trusting that His way is perfect. A true testing ground once again, taking you deeper in your trust in Him, after all you experienced. But He is faithful! Can't wait to rejoice with you a the birth of Levi...but hoping God gives him a little more growing time inside.

Thanks for keeping us posted. Much love to you, as always,
Stacy

Anonymous said...

Sara, would you call me soon! I am praying for you....chris and mary

Carolina said...

Thinking of you and sweet little Levi. God does have him right in his hands just keep repeating that over and over again. Praying for your family and specially the health of little Levi!

Carolina said...

Oh by the way the 'Truth project' is very good, but can be a little boring at times (since each lesson is 1 hour long). Some of the lessons are dry, some are really awesome. Just wanted to let you know that :)

Ebe said...

We have been praying for you and sweet Levi. I'm with Tonya... I think I would like being in the hospital too. I would have pushed to stay if I could have in those last few weeks of pregnancy with Hannah Mae.

You're doing great!!! love,
ebe

mom2many said...

I don't comment much or even blog anymore, but know that I am checking up on you frequently. I know how you feel...well, not exactly, but I understand your anxiety. Does it help you to know that I felt it to as I watched and waited for Aaron to pass that 2 year, one month, and 5 day age mark? Why in my head was I worrying about "keeping him alive" longer than I was able to keep Jacob alive? You can't help the feelings and thoughts, but when you look back it does seem kind of silly...unless you've been through it. And only when Emma passes that age will I be fully relaxed. Still thinking of you and praying for you! God is faithful and He loves little Levi!!! I believe He has great plans for your family!

Amy said...

It has been a while since we have talked, but I thought I would check up on you and the family that has impacted ours in so many ways. Had heard through the grapevine of your dear Hope and now of Levi, you are richly blessed. We will pray for you and your family as the day of his birth draws near. Love to you all.