Wednesday, September 30, 2009
GRAMPS AND JOJO
DURING OUR HIKE.
ANNA AND GRANDMA
THE COUSINS ON THE HIKE THROUGH THE KETTLE MORRAINE FOREST. THERE IS JUST SOMETHING ABOUT HIKING THROUGH THE WOODS IN THE FALL. I LOVE IT, THE SMELLS, THE LEAVES, THE CRISP AIR... ALL OF IT.
FALL IS MY FAVORITE SEASON... WE JUST MISSED THE CHANGING OF ALL OF THE LEAVES. THAT IS ONE THING I MISS HERE IN OK, YOU GET SOME CHANGE OF LEAVES HERE, BUT IT ISN'T THE MAJESTIC CHANGE YOU GET UP NORTH:)
Monday, September 28, 2009
This precious couple, Annie and Brett are finally married. We were so blessed to be a part of their special day. It was Greg's first wedding to perform, so that was kind of exciting. But really it was just so exciting to see them get married. We always knew that they would, but it was so fun to have the day finally arrive for them. Annie was one of Greg's youth at St. Paul's, and she and Brett have dated for the past 8 years... Greg was so honored to get to marry them. It was kind of funny after the ceremony Greg admitted to me, that when they opened the door and Annie and her dad were starting to walk down the aisle he started to get all teary eyed. I hate to think about what he will be like when it is his own daughter. It was a beautiful ceremony, beautiful bride and groom, beautiful day and great to get to talk with old St. Paul's friends.
Friday, September 25, 2009
LOUIS WITH DOOFUS, SPARKEY... WE JUST DISCOVERED HIS NAME IS REALLY FRED. NOW YOU BETTER SIT DOWN, WE LOVE THIS DOG... YES I SAID WE, MOST PEOPLE KNOW THAT I HAVE NEVER LIKED DOGS, REALLY HAVE BEEN PRETTY SCARED OF THEM MY WHOLE LIFE. BUT FRED IS JUST SO SWEET... BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I ACTUALLY TOLD THE KIDS THEY COULD GO ASK HIS OWNER IF WE COULD HAVE HIM. THEN I RETHOUGHT IT ALL. WHAT BETTER KIND OF DOG THAN THE KIND THAT IS HERE TO PLAY WITH, LOVE ON, BUT YOU NEVER HAVE TO FEEL OBLIGATED TO FEED, OR FIND HELP FOR WHEN YOU LEAVE TOWN. BUT MAN, HE IS THE NICEST DOG... KIND OF HAS BECOME A PART OF THE HINTZ CREW:)
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
I couldn't help posting this one, check out Anna's eyes... HMMMM, what does she see in that watermelon... a big black bug, a 100 dollar bill... what could it be? Wooh, this was some gooooood watermelon.
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OK so I need help. I am going crazy with the fruit flies at my house. Does anyone out there have a sure fire way on how to get rid of them for good. I have tried a glass of vinegar, that was somewhat successful, but I need something that will really work. I think with living in the country and having a bunch of kids coming in and out all day long we have invited the little critters to join us. Between that and the regular house flies, I am starting to loose my mind... Oh yeah, that already happened last month when I forgot my husband's birthday after 16 years of marriage... good grief. I would love any ideas.
One other thing, we have never had a thumb sucker till Anna and in fact she had a pacifier till she was 2... had nothing till 3 1/2, then after seeing some other little booger sucking his thumb, she took up the habit at 3 1/2. Who does that? Well apparently my precious little girl does. Here we sit at almost 7 and she is still doing it. Has anyone tried something that will work to break the thumb sucking habit. We try to have here sleep with a mitten on at night. We have tried to work towards a fun pizza party out with the family, but I am fresh out of ideas. I would love what ever ideas you might have.
Today was just one of those days. I was either on the verge or crying the majority of the day. I don't know what set it off, but whatever it was, the grief came back heavy and with a vengeance. Plain and simple, I still just wish things were different. So much has changed and quite frankly it exhausts me sometimes just thinking about it. Many days I still don't recognize myself... this former social bug, much rather sit in the comfort of my own home, or with a smaller more intimate group, than be in a large crowd. Today for the first time, I had a brief moment where I just thought I am going to take all of the pictures of Samuel down... and pretend he never existed, then would the pain go away or lessen? Then my gut just felt sick, that is what it has felt like so many others have done, pretend he didn't exist. That has added to my grief BIG TIME over the last year. So obviously, all of his pictures are still up:) And there is no way I would give up the 9 months I spent with Samuel, just to avoid the pain I feel now... it was a fleeting thought, once I thought it, I knew it was wrong for me. Just one of those days....
Sunday, September 20, 2009
The top picture is the little card they tape to the door of the room that has a family inside that has lost their baby... we all remember that same card from the day we lost Samuel as well.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I know my kid needs a haircut... but can you believe the size of that green bean someone from church gave us?
Ok, I think it is official.... running in the rain is my absolute favorite weather to run in. Probably not the best for your shoes, but really good for the soul. You know a lot of people talk about the storms of life hitting you... the downpour. I can certainly relate to that and I can appreciate that word picture. For some strange reason though in this journey I am on, the rain is actually a good thing. Sometimes just seeing the rain fall, feels good to me, it sometimes just perfectly suits my mood. And other days it feels like a healing rain, a cleansing rain. I have a dear friend Becky who has been praying together with me that this year, 2009, would bring renewed promises, intense healing and flooding... and we have been praying for flooding in a good way:)
I feel like our days are always so full. I enjoy it all, but sometimes I feel like I am under the gun. This will sound crazy but I finally feel like I have the energy to cook and maintain the meal part of our life again... For a while it was going better, then after Joel died that was one thing that just seemed to be overwhelming to me. I know that sounds so lame. That is very unlike me, I love to cook yummy, homemade things, but I just didn't have the energy to. So I am finally back to it, and it feels good. I made some really yummy quinoa today for lunch. All of the kids actually loved it.
Tonight we had the MEND, my infant loss support group, fundraiser. This was funny. I had asked the ladies at group if there would be men there and it seemed like plenty of them said yes... it just so happened that they gave their husbands jobs to do at the fundraiser. I think my husband was the only man, and Louis and Caleb were 2 of 3 kids there. They had a ball, Greg on the other hand said that I owe him Big time. I think he will be coming to collect:) Poor guy, he was a pretty good sport though... He even won a prize, which embarrassed him even more. It was a big success which was great. I have to say that of all the things that have helped me since losing my son, my counselor, my dearest friends, the volunteer photographers at Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep, and MEND have been some of the biggest blessings to me.
This week we were also blessed to trade in our old minivan for a BIG van, an 11 passenger. I realized as I drove to church in it last week, when I declared out loud, "I love this car" what a total geek I have become. Really I do love it. It will be such a HUGE blessing when we have to travel... like next week when we hit the road for a 12 hour drive to Wisconsin for a wedding. Greg is marrying one of his youth that he had in youth group up there before we went to the seminary. We will stay 3 days and then turn around and head back. It will be really quick, but it will be so nice to travel with a little more room. Previously I was always traveling with 3 bags at my feet and every nook and cranny filled. This will be so nice.
Praying you have a blessed Friday... Yeah, the weekend.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sweet little 5 year old Anna with Samuel... She was either holding him, kissing him or snuggled up to whoever was holding him that day. What a tender heart God has given her.
Sometimes you have things happen that you never expect to happen in YOUR life. Yesterday was one of those days when I had that happen.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
UPDATE: We finally got our computer working so I could post of picture of Ryane. Isn't she beautiful... inside and out:) This one was taken back in March the night we got our tatoos:)
I just have to let you all know what an awesome amazing friend I have. I know I mentioned Greg's cousin Ryane before... she is my tattoo buddy. ( My regular computer is down so I will have to post a picture of her in another post) She is also one of Jojo's godparents and has been such a HUGE support to me over the past 10 months. She was the one who came up here to just hang out and support us last January. She got my rear running again after Samuel died.
Well, she is about to run her 4th (I think:) marathon. She is running it in memory of Samuel. She is running with RUNNING HOPE. It is a division of Shaohannah's Hope, the organization that Steven Curtis Chapman and his wife Mary Beth founded to raise money to give grants to people who are adopting. They also have built Maria's House of Hope in memory of their daughter Maria who died 17 months ago. This home takes care of special needs orphans and even has a surgery floor to do surgeries for these children that otherwise may not ever be done. After Samuel died Ryane and her husband immediately sent a gift to them in memory of Samuel. Little did she know that was one of the foundations we wanted to send memorials to in lieu of flowers. This girl can read my mind sometimes,it is crazy.
She is also doing a big chili cook off the first weekend of November in Louisiana to raise money for Shaohannah's Hope. I think she runs the race the following week. Ryane is such a go getter. I am amazed with all she does, but my heart is just warmed that she would do it this in memory of Samuel. As time passes by, less and less people mention my son... it seems that many have forgotten or certainly moved on. But for us, we haven't, we couldn't, we will never forget the precious miracle that Samuel was to us. And it just makes me smile to know that Ryane hasn't forgotten either. I know she won't. She has been faithful to call and check in on me, and faithful to always mention Samuel, and now she is helping his memory bring good to orphans all over the world.
The kids and I may try to head down there the first weekend of November to be a part of the cook off, we won't cook, just hang out. That will be just a few short days after our boy will have been gone a full year. Boy we miss that sweet baby, but we are so thankful for precious friends and loved ones that validate and honor Samuel's life. What a gift that is to us. Thanks Ryane! We love you so much!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Ahhhh, Peace, such a great thing. Praying you all have a peaceful weekend.
Monday, September 7, 2009
THE FOUR JARS READY TO BREW IN THE CROCK POT FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS
I am not sure where my love for all things natural really started. I think it was when we were close to having to get tubes for Louis. He had quite a few ear infections and our pediatrician said if he gets one or 2 more, we had to look at tubes. My mom sent me some homeopathic drops to use when he got another cold or when we were suspicious of another ear infection... and let me tell you, he never had another one. I think that is what started my interest in more healthy living in general. From there it went onto using more homeopathic remedies, eating better, teaching natural childbirth classes, becoming a doula, and yes, making herbal tinctures:)
So let me preface it all by saying, I know these things don't appeal to everyone. I know not everyone loves natural childbirth like me, and many aren't even remotely interested in it :) and that is totally ok with me. I certainly am not religious about how we eat, we just try to make good choices for the most part and then when we splurge or have treats I don't feel bad. I am very thankful to have doctors that can help us when we need them. We don't avoid going to them at all, it just seems that since we have started to be more concious of what we eat, and using the homeopathic things when little things come up, we rarely NEED to go see them. I like that:)
It is funny, Greg calls all that natural remedies and such, "my witch doctor stuff". The funny part is, if he ever feels a sickness brewing, he is the first to ask for some of it.
And that is where the immune builder tincture comes in...
Basically it is a whole mess of herbs like Echinecea roots and tops, elderberries, nettle, peppermint, rosehips, and ginsing root. You put the herbal mix in pint size jars, cover with hot water, and then fill the jars almost to the top with vegetable glycerin. I am not going to lie, it doesn't taste the best. It is incredibly sweet. You can put it in tea, but we just tend to take a spoonful and wash it down with water. Last year, we literally had only one child with one cold all winter. So since we already had one child we know diagnosed with the swine flu, I thought I should get the concoction going. I am thankful to be able to use some of the wonderful things God put on this earth to help stregthen our immune systems. If you are at all interested in herbs a great place to get them online is www.bulkherbstore.com
Do you think I am kind of wacky now? Hopefully you'll still come back wacky or not:)
Sunday, September 6, 2009
WE HAVE HAD A SUPER BUSY WEEKEND SO FAR. THE KIDS WERE AT THE BOTTOM'S FARM YESTERDAY. THEY ALL SLEPT OVER AND THE BIG KIDS HELPED WITH THE FARMERS MARKET AGAIN. THEY HAD A BIG SLEEPOVER WITH THE BOTTOM'S OTHER GRANDCHILDREN. THE KIDS HAVE TAKEN TO CALLING THEM THEIR OKLAHOMA GRANDMA AND GRANDPA. GREG AND I GOT A LOT DONE WHILE THE KIDS WERE GONE... HONESTLY I CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST NIGHT GREG AND I SPENT WITH OUT ANY OF THE KIDS.
GREG AND I HAD SUCH A NICE TALK WITH MRS. BOTTOM AND HER DAUGHTER OVER DINNER. SHE HAS WORKED IN HOSPICE FOR YEARS. IT IS SO NEAT TO HEAR HER TALK ABOUT THE BEAUTY OF WHEN A PERSON PASSES AND HOW IT IS SUCH A SPIRITUAL TIME. IT WAS FASCINATING. ONE THING I HAVE SEEN OVER AND OVER AGAIN IS PEOPLE'S UNCOMFORTABLENESS WITH DEATH, THE PROCESS OF DYING, AND THE ONES LEFT TO GRIEVE. SHE HAD SUCH NEAT INSIGHT. I TOLD GREG SHE NEEDS TO SHARE THAT KNOWLEDGE... I COULD SEE THE WHEELS TURNING IN GREG'S HEAD, HOW TO MAKE THAT POSSIBLE.
I WILL TRY TO UPDATE ON SOME CHANGES WE HAVE HAD WITH THE WHOLE ADOPTION PLAN... WE ARE STILL ANXIOUSLY... NOT REALLY ANXIOUSLY, PROBABLY MORE EXCITEDLY AND IMPATIENTLY WAITING FOR ANOTHER BIRTH MOM TO CHOOSE OUR FAMILY. I WILL TELL YOU ABOUT SOME OF THE CHANGES WHEN I HAVE A BIT MORE TIME.
FOR NOW I WILL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS... SOME OF MY FAVORITE VERSES FROM ISAIAH....
THE SPIRIT OF THE SOVEREIGN LORD IS UPON ME,
BECAUSE THE LORD HAS ANNOINTED ME
TO PROCLAIM GOOD NEWS TO THE POOR.
HE HAS SENT ME TO BIND UP THE BROKEN HEARTED,
TO PROCLAIM FREEDOM FOR THE CAPTIVES
AND RELEASE FROM DARKNESS FOR THE PRISONERS.
TO PROCLAIM THE YEAR OF THE LORD'S FAVOR AND THE DAY OF VENGEANCE OF OUR GOD,
TO COMFORT ALL WHO MOURN, AND PROVIDE FOR THOSE WHO GRIEVE IN ZION,
TO BESTOW ON THEM A CROWN OF BEAUTY INSTEAD OF ASHES,
THE OIL OF GLADNESS INSTEAD OF MOURNING.
AND A GARMENT OF PRAISE INSTEAD OF A SPIRIT OF DESPAIR.
THEY WILL BE CALLED MIGHTY OAKS,
A PLANTING OF THE LORD FOR THE DISPLAY OF HIS SPLENDOR.
Friday, September 4, 2009
CALEB AND JACK
LOUIS KNEE BOARDING
LOUIS, CALEB AND ANNA ON OUR HIKE
THE HINTZ AND STOCKTON CREW AT INKS LAKE