Not a whole lot of new things going on here, we have had a busy week, adjusting to our home school schedule. Every year I have to remind myself that it usually takes about a month before I really feel like we are in a groove... we're getting there:)
I thought I would give you a quick update on all of the adoption stuff. Faith would have been due in just a couple of weeks. For so long everything revolved around Sept. 25th the due date. Being young like she was, there would have been a good chance we would've had that little one in our home already. I can't help but be sad about that, and wish in my heart that things were different. It is weird, it seems I am constantly feeling a mix of emotions. Of course I wish things would be different, but at the same time, I trust in God's plan and I can rest in that.
Anyways... A couple of weeks ago we got a message from a friend on a Friday evening... saying to call her back ASAP. It seemed rather odd. I got online because it was much too late to be calling her home. So we chatted on facebook. Basically the nuts and bolts of the conversation was that she had been told by someone that there was an adoption agency in another city in OK that really needed adoptive parents that were willing to adopt a child of a different race. They had one baby that had just come and one due that week. The director of that agency called the next morning asking us to try to get all of our things to her, like the home study and a whole slew of forms she emailed me to fill out.
This is an agency. CPO is more of a ministry, strictly run by volunteers. They both seem wonderful, just different. So we gave her all that she asked for. Who knows where God may have a child for us... We certainly can't claim to know what He is up to. So basically we were super excited hoping just maybe we could head out of town to pick up a baby. It didn't happen, but who knows what God has in store. It just hasn't been the right time, but we know that if it is God's will, He will have the perfect baby or babies:) for our family. Now we just have to wait. That is the hard part.
I thought it was so sad that people don't want a child of another race. We have always thought, that if we adopted it would be a child that didn't look like us. We will love deeply and treasure any special child the Lord brings our way light skinned or dark skinned. My parents first foster baby when I was in High School was a little biracial baby named Ross that we had with us for 6 months. He was so unbelievably precious. He was also the best natured little guy. I have always had a soft spot in my heart biracial little ones ever since then... so sweet. Who am I kidding all little ones are so sweet:)
For me it is a constant ebbing and flowing of all of the emotions. That can literally wear me out. I want to trust fully that the Lord has good for us in the future. So it is easy to get excited, let your mind wander, yet at the same time a piece of you is really holding back at all times, sad to say, wondering what tragedy is just around the corner. I know that sounds so pessimistic, and normally that is not me at all.
Please pray boldly with us that the Lord will bring us a sweet little baby... sooner rather than later:) We know it is in His timing, yet he wants us to make our requests known to Him right? We so appreciate your prayers on our family's behalf.
One of my favorite verses from Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with Thanksgiving present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Ahhhh, Peace, such a great thing. Praying you all have a peaceful weekend.
Hoping you have a great weekend.