Yep, you saw that correctly... UGH!
After getting the news that we were in the clear to share our good news about little HOPE joining our family, the sticky situation that was present when we first got her, is quite present again, more so.
I am sorry for being cryptic in what I can share here, but I have always been amazed myself at how small blog world can be. The reason for that is to protect her, our children, and us. All I can really say is that there is legal action being pursued by others, we are along for the ride... we should have a definite answer after all of the hearings occur... by the end of February. It has been stated that this whole situation is uncharted territory even for the judge and adoption agency.
So with that being said, I am a little shocked that our family got the "uncharted territory"adoption case:) Seriously, I start to worry and wonder if those near and dear to us will be able to hang with us through ANOTHER crazy circumstance. (Truly we are just trying to be open to the Lord's leading, and His work in our life. Drama has never been a part of our life... this is all so new to us... but really the last 15 months have been one crazy thing after another. ) I am praying that our friends and you all will be able to hang in there...we need the support and prayers.
We have been praying for 14 months that the Lord would bless us with another child... For over a year we have been praying for the baby the Lord would bring our way. We already love this sweet precious girl. We feel honored and privileged to have had her in our home for the last 4 weeks (as of today:) Ultimately we want what God wants...if this is the daughter He has for us... AWESOME! But if it isn't will we be willing to let her go? Yes. Do I want to see my children get their hearts hurt again... ABSOLUTELY NOT, honestly that is the hardest part here. I look at all the situations we have been through, and I know with God's help Greg and I can get through this all, but my kids... I want to protect them. We had a very frank conversation with them last night... guard your heart kids, guard your hearts... we are saying the same thing to ourselves. I did really well the first 2 weeks, then when we were given the go ahead... I let go. Hope made it very easy... She is such a sweet little thing.
So our prayer is that the very best thing for HOPE would be done. We want her to be where God wants her. Of course, we have our own desires, but we need to let God be God. Please pray for our children's hearts. Please pray we can be at peace for the next weeks while we wait. Pray that we can love her fully, because that is what she deserves yet, not fully let our hearts go. Pray for God's will to be done in her life.
So sending out the Christmas cards... is now back on hold...
Maybe by March we will be able to fill people in on what is going on with our family... UGH!
Trying to wait patiently in our Savior's loving, strong, hope filled arms.
Fully trusting in HIM<><
Sorry for not being able to post more... We so appreciate your prayers!