Friday, January 8, 2010

UGH!!

Yep, you saw that correctly... UGH!

After getting the news that we were in the clear to share our good news about little HOPE joining our family, the sticky situation that was present when we first got her, is quite present again, more so.

I am sorry for being cryptic in what I can share here, but I have always been amazed myself at how small blog world can be. The reason for that is to protect her, our children, and us. All I can really say is that there is legal action being pursued by others, we are along for the ride... we should have a definite answer after all of the hearings occur... by the end of February. It has been stated that this whole situation is uncharted territory even for the judge and adoption agency.

So with that being said, I am a little shocked that our family got the "uncharted territory"adoption case:) Seriously, I start to worry and wonder if those near and dear to us will be able to hang with us through ANOTHER crazy circumstance. (Truly we are just trying to be open to the Lord's leading, and His work in our life. Drama has never been a part of our life... this is all so new to us... but really the last 15 months have been one crazy thing after another. ) I am praying that our friends and you all will be able to hang in there...we need the support and prayers.

We have been praying for 14 months that the Lord would bless us with another child... For over a year we have been praying for the baby the Lord would bring our way. We already love this sweet precious girl. We feel honored and privileged to have had her in our home for the last 4 weeks (as of today:) Ultimately we want what God wants...if this is the daughter He has for us... AWESOME! But if it isn't will we be willing to let her go? Yes. Do I want to see my children get their hearts hurt again... ABSOLUTELY NOT, honestly that is the hardest part here. I look at all the situations we have been through, and I know with God's help Greg and I can get through this all, but my kids... I want to protect them. We had a very frank conversation with them last night... guard your heart kids, guard your hearts... we are saying the same thing to ourselves. I did really well the first 2 weeks, then when we were given the go ahead... I let go. Hope made it very easy... She is such a sweet little thing.

So our prayer is that the very best thing for HOPE would be done. We want her to be where God wants her. Of course, we have our own desires, but we need to let God be God. Please pray for our children's hearts. Please pray we can be at peace for the next weeks while we wait. Pray that we can love her fully, because that is what she deserves yet, not fully let our hearts go. Pray for God's will to be done in her life.

So sending out the Christmas cards... is now back on hold...

Maybe by March we will be able to fill people in on what is going on with our family... UGH!

Trying to wait patiently in our Savior's loving, strong, hope filled arms.
Fully trusting in HIM<><

Sorry for not being able to post more... We so appreciate your prayers!

9 comments:

Jenn said...
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Jenn said...

Sara...
I am so sorry that this is happening!
You have been on my mind lately and in my prayers!
I pray for strength and courage and HOPE that God's will be done.
I obviously don't know the situation but I beleive in my heart that you and Greg are to be her parents.
Please let me know if you need anything!

Rachel said...

I will be praying, Sara. For you all! I know what you mean though about your kids. That's my biggest fear, is how my boys would handle it if something happened to Caleb.

Praying that God's will will be done quickly, so as not to prolong the potential for pain. But also praying for Hope to find her forever family with you if it be God's will!

Becky said...

Sara,
We're praying for you guys, for complete peace and contentment through the next few weeks. My mama's heart knows the fear of the possibility of losing when you've felt so in love, I pray you don't have to go through the anguish of having to say "goodbye" again. We love you...are you sure a wintery trip to Nebraska wouldn't be the perfect distraction?

We'll talk soon!

Jessica and Christopher said...

Sara, Thanks for your words on our blog the other day. I'm so sorry to hear about this happening to your family. But you are wise, you have done all you can to prepare yourself and your family for whatever God's will is. Drama is definitely UGH and we will definitely be praying for all of you here in Iowa! Keep loving!
big hug for whatever you need it for this morning. Lifting you all up to HIM! Jessica

Ebe said...

Oh, Sara. My first words when I read this were NO and WHY? Seriously.

I am so sorry that this is another struggle, another heart ache and though nothing is decided yet, I'm sure your mind goes to the thought of having to let Hope go.
We are praying for your heart during this time of waiting and not knowing. Though we never know what tomorrow or next month holds, it seems like it's super stressful and scary knowing there is a possibility of loss and pain in the future.

In all this, God bears you and your precious family up daily. He is guiding and directing your steps; sometimes it looks crazy to us...but he is in control.

love you friend,
ebe

Corie said...

Praying for you...and along for the ride!

mom2many said...

I am so amazed at how our lives seem to mirror each other! I am not sure what God is trying to teach us through all of the drama, but I do know that it is our responsibility to obey. Praying. You know that God is bigger than all of this and NOBODY can thwart His plan.

Ryane said...

Ive been trying to call lately, havent heard your voice in a long time :(
I know you are busy but want you to know I am praying for yall and think about you always!!
Love and miss you,
ryane