Sunday, December 28, 2008

ANNA'S PRECIOUS LOVE

ANNA AND SAMUEL
Have you ever seen such precious little sweetie pies? When I look at pictures of my precious children, I am in awe of God's goodness to Greg and me. Just 2 months after Greg and I started dating he was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Disease, a cancer of the Lymphatic system. So when we were first married there was a time that Greg and I weren't sure if we would be able to have children. We have been blessed 5 times over. We continually thank God for each of those blessings. And honestly as our kids get older, and we see how quickly time goes by, we love and treasure them more and more. And we love and treasure each pregnancy more and more. I think with each pregnancy we have been more excited just knowing the blessing that each child is, how uniquely God creates each one. Oh how we miss our 5th little blessing Samuel.

SONS ARE A HERITAGE FROM THE LORD,

CHILDREN A REWARD FROM HIM.

LIKE ARROWS IN THE HANDS OF A WARRIOR

ARE SONS BORN IN ONE'S YOUTH.

BLESSED IS THE MAN

WHOSE QUIVER IS FULL OF THEM.

PSALM 127:3-4

I will never forget how precious Anna was with Samuel, she couldn't get enough of him. I wondered if the kids would be afraid to hold him or be with him knowing that he had already passed away. Of course there were many tears, but they all were totally at ease with holding him and wanted to be with him. Anna just kept kissing him on his sweet little rosebud lips. I think I might have said this before but her little mommy heart was evident. I finally had to tell her it was the last time that she could hold him because I wanted to hold him. She has such a tender heart and many times just comes up to rub my back and cry with me. She always says, "Its OK mommy, we all miss baby Samuel."

The last week has been a hard one, a week of not too many ups and downs like the last 2 months have been. It has certainly been just more down. I am not sure what the reason is... could it be the holidays? I think it is a combination of everything.

When I was taking a bath the other day I was thinking of a song that Andrew Peterson sings called Hosanna. (He is by far my favorite christian singer) His new CD is called Resurrection Letters and speaks over and over again of God's restoring power. How appropriate for me right now. It just speaks to my soul and the hurt within me. Anyways, in the song Hosanna there is a line that talks about God beating death at deaths own game. WOW, God has done that, he is victorious over death. My son is dead and not with me in a physical way, but yet his soul is alive with Christ. Satan wants to bring us all misery. Death is a result of the fall and sin in the world. The fall being caused by Satan tempting Eve in the garden. Thus death is really a result of the devils wicked schemes. God has beaten death and the devil at his own game. It actually gave me a hopeful moment in the tub. I am claiming that God is going to work that same victorious healing in my life and heart.


2 comments:

Kelly said...

Hi,

I am new to your blog. I just wanted to stop in and say hello. We too lost a child...This was our 2nd daughter, named Liberty. We were blessed with Libby for 5 months and 3 days before the good Lord called her home. It has been 14 months since she passed away, and it has been quite a journey to say the least..lots of valley's to get through and lots of up hill battles to be won, but with Gods grace we are still chuggin' along. Please know that you are in our prayers..all of your children are gorgeous! God bless you all. Please feel free to leave me a message on my blog or email me anytime. My email address is momleavingalegacy@yahoo.com

God bless you all.

In His Love,
Kelly

Rachel said...

Sara- thanks for the prayers! Praying for you too. I do have the one year book of hope (a new friend who lost two babies gave it to me) but I haven't started it yet, as I'm reading Heaven by Randy Alcorn. Don't have too much time to read with homeschooling, but I love to read and know both books will be excellent.
Blessings!
The picture of Anna and Samuel couldn't be any sweeter!