Saturday, February 12, 2011

TIME ON MY HANDS...


WHEN I ASK LOU TO PICK SOME PICTURES AND POST THEM... YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHAT HE WILL COME UP WITH... MAKES ME WONDER A LITTLE BIT WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON AT THE HOME FRONT:) THIS IS SO JOJO... LOOKS LIKE IN ADDITION TO THE HUNTING ATTIRE HE HAS SOME BLUE MARKER AND CHOCOLATE ON HIS FACE:)




MY SWEET ANNA... GETTING SO BIG...






32 WEEKS 5 DAYS WITH LEVI... LOUIS JUST TOOK THIS PICTURE TONIGHT WHEN THEY CAME TO SEE ME AT THE HOSPITAL...

BECAUSE I AM ON BEDREST, I AM USUALLY RECLINING... IT SEEMS LIKE I AM MUCH SMALLER THAN NORMAL... I THINK IT IS BECAUSE I AM NOT UP AND ABOUT. NORMALLY WITH MY PREGNANCIES I HAVE FELT HUGE AND EVEN HUGER BY THE END OF THE DAY:)

IT WAS FUNNY THOUGH BECAUSE THIS MORNING WHEN MY NURSE, SWEET DEZRA CAME IN, RIGHT AWAY SHE SAID, "WOW, YOU ARE GETTING BIGGER" YAY!!! IT MADE MY HEART SWELL... I LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY SOOOO MUCH!



TWO LITTLE GOOFBALLS... I LOVE HOW HOPE'S HAIR IS GROWING, IT MAKES HER LOOK SO MUCH OLDER AND DIFFERENT IN LOTS OF WAYS... I LOVE HER CURLS:)



I MET ANOTHER OF MY DOCTOR'S ASSOCIATES TODAY... I LIKED HER, WE DIDN'T TALK LONG, BUT SHE SEEMED NICE ENOUGH...

I HAVE HAD A LOT OF TIME ON MY HANDS, AND YESTERDAY I GOT A BETTER IDEA OF HOW MUCH TIME I MAY REALLY HAVE BEFORE HE ARRIVES.

WHEN MY DOCTOR COME IN YESTERDAY MORNING, I ASKED HIM WHAT THE CHANCES ARE THAT I WILL ACTUALLY GET HIM TO DELIVER LEVI. HE SAID THAT GIVEN THE ISSUES I HAVE GOING ON AND THE PREVIOUS STILLBIRTH THAT HE WOULDN'T LET ME GO PAST MONDAY MARCH 14TH, WHICH WOULD BE 37 WEEKS. (MY GUT FEELING IS THAT I WON'T MAKE IT THAT FAR... BUT I COULD BE TOTALLY WRONG:) MARCH 14TH WOULD PUT ME AT JUST 29 DAYS AWAY... IT IS SO NICE TO FEEL LIKE THE END IS IN SIGHT.

HE DID SAY TOO, THAT HE FEELS LIKE MOST LIKELY WE WILL HAVE TO INDUCE ME, SO THAT WOULD MAKE IT MORE LIKELY TOO, THAT HE WOULD BE THE ONE TO DELIVER LEVI. THAT IS ONE OF MY BIG PRAYER REQUESTS RIGHT NOW. TRULY, I HAVEN'T BEEN IMPRESSED WITH ANY OF HIS ASSOC. BUT AT LEAST A COUPLE HAVE BEEN OK:)

I HAVE NOT REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT THE DELIVERY MUCH. I USED TO BE A NATURAL CHILDBIRTH TEACHER AND BIRTH DOULA... I LOVED THAT ALL, IT WAS TOTALLY ONE OF MY PASSIONS. HONESTLY THOUGH, WITH SAMUEL'S BIRTH BEING AS SAD, SCARY, AND TRAUMATIC IN MANY WAYS AS IT WAS, I HAVE JUST CHOSEN NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT THE DETAILS OF THE UPCOMING BIRTH.

NOW THAT I KNOW THAT WE ARE GETTING CLOSER AND THE END IS IN SIGHT, I AM GETTING A LITTLE SCARED ABOUT THE BIRTH ITSELF. I HAVE PRETTY MUCH RESOLVED MYSELF TO THE FACT THAT IT WON'T BE MY "DREAM" BIRTH AS FAR AS THE PROCESS GOES, AND REALLY I AM TOTALLY FINE WITH THAT. I JUST WANT HIM TO ARRIVE SAFE AND SOUND AND HOWEVER THAT HAPPENS, I CAN BE FINE WITH SURRENDERING TO HOWEVER IT GOES DOWN... BUT I AM A LITTLE LEARY ABOUT THE PROCESS ITSELF.

IT WAS JUST REALLY NICE TO TALK WITH HIM ABOUT MORE DETAILS OF WHEN THIS LITTLE GUY MIGHT ARRIVE.


I HAVE MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR TODAY. I WANT TO TRY TO POST SOON ABOUT ALL THE NEAT AND INTERESTING DISCUSSIONS I HAVE HAD WITH THE NURSES LATELY. I HAVE BEEN SO FORTUNATE TO HAVE REALLY KIND NURSES:)

MUCH LOVE!! SPEAKING OF LOVE... WITH VALENTINE'S DAY, I AM KEEPING BUSY TRYING TO COME UP WITH SOME HOMEMADE VALENTINES FOR GREG AND THE KIDS... SHOULD BE INTERESTING:)








4 comments:

Stacy@hiswaynotmine said...

So glad to hear that you are doing well. I love all the pictures that you shared. I can't imagine how hard it is to be away from all your kiddos. Despite the marker and chocolate, it looks like your hubby is doing a great job! :) And what's a little marker and chocolate in the whole scheme of things, right?! :) You are blessed in so many ways.

I am thrilled that Levi is growing and getting stronger and that God is giving you this time. It won't be long now before you hold that sweet guy in your arms. I can't wait to celebrate that day with you!

Continuing to hold you close in prayer.

Much love,
Stacy

Anonymous said...

So glad to hear an update about how things are going. I can't wait to hear about the birth and arrival of Levi. Don't know how you guys do it, God is so good. I think my boys would have a little more than marker and chocolate on their faces if I were gone. Wednesday is our big day, we are excited to share the news with you. Lyndsey

Becky said...

Praying for you dear friend, last night I woke up praying for all the details of Levi's last few weeks, his birth, Greg, the kids, your reunion back home. We love you guys and will continue to lift you up! **I forgot to mention that when we talked yesterday. We will remember you in our prayers. **Love the pictures of the kids, Sara they're getting so grown up and Hope barely looks like the peanut you brought home!!

Ebe said...

These pictures are great! Anna looks so grown up in the first picture, and I love the picture of you and her. So so sweet.

Sara, I think of you constantly throughout the day and pray for y'all. Love you and praying that all the details surrounding Levi's birth are calm and peaceful. And that you are at peace now.

love,
ebe