Thursday, August 19, 2010


Today I was totally overcome with gratefulness when we saw ONE beautiful heartbeat on the ultrasound screen. (Don't get me wrong, I would have totally been grateful with 2 or 3 heartbeats:) I was overcome with gratefulness to God that He has allowed this to actually happen... we gave these babies a chance at life ... and it worked... It was ALL HIS work... every single bit of it:)

Today on my drive home from the ultrasound I was totally overcome with tears of gratefulness for our embryo donor! I just am amazed that she would bless us in such a way... with such an incredible gift... LIFE! I am completely humbled and truly feel pretty unworthy of such an awesome gift.

The Doctor (whom I love by the way, who also himself has lost a child, but his child was 18 I believe... He gets the grief, loss experience first hand which I really appreciate as we move forward with this pregnancy) was great as usual. The first time I met him, I called Greg after the visit and said, "I really hope I get pregnant so that we can actually use this guy as our Doctor... you will love him honey." He will have me see a high risk doctor just to make sure we stay totally on top of things given what happened with Samuel. I love that he will be vigilant with this go around.

I also know that anything can still happen, but the Doctor did say that those statistics go down significantly after you see a good heartbeat on a normal ultrasound. That gave my heart some peace. So we place this little baby in the Lord's hands... the very best place for he/she to be:) and we will see what happens...but at this point we are filled with joy.

One more thing... I know maybe some of you found my blog because you also have lost a child. Maybe some of you are longing for that baby or long to get pregnant, but it isn't happening for you. I know that hearing the news of a another pregnancy can be really difficult. I want you to know that I completely understand that. My heart goes out to you. I pray that our embryo adoption miracle doesn't deepen your pain. I also want you to know, that if you let me know, through an email or comment, I would love to be praying for you where ever you are in that grief journey. I mean that whole heartedly.

Oh by the way, here is a little bonus! Greg and I had lunch at PF Changs between the ultrasound and the Doctor's appt. After we ate we were talking with the waiter, who I think was a manager. We mentioned to him that we were celebrating this new life, and told him some about all of our other kids, including our miscarriage and Samuel. He then said that his wife had also had a stillbirth and a miscarriage... I was shocked... you just don't hear it that often... Then he came back and said that lunch was on him... What a special gift and treat!


Bethany said...

Praise the Lord! I have been waiting to hear about the outcome! YAY!!! Thanks for being so real about the emotions for us that still have no children here with us...thank you! Can't wait to hear more about this wee one!

mom2many said...

WOOHOO!! Praise God!! What a miracle! So, when is this miracle due?? I'm so confused! :)

Stacy said...

I am overcome with joy and thanksgiving for you and your husband and family. What a precious gift God has given you once again. Praise God for new life. Praise God for a heartbeat. And praise God for the sweet gift at the end of the day at PF Chang. What a gift for all of us to walk beside you as you continue to trust in the Lord with all your heart and commit your lives and children to Him.

Much love!

Jenn said...

SARA! My heart is filled with JOY and HAPPINESS for your family!
I think I know who your OB was (Dr W?)..(if so)he was also mine and I LOVED him! I would go back to him in a heartbeat! I can't wait to see you and church and hug you! so sending a BIG ((((HUG)))) now!

Anonymous said...

hi sara......thanks for sharing your incredible story with us. and what a beautiful sight to see on that ultrasound! God is good, indeed. i will be praying that all continues to go well.


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Anonymous said...

I am overcome with joy for you and Greg and all of your sweet children. We will keep praying for God's sweet mercy and love over your family -- Cannot wait to hug you in person! So, so thankful -- CHris and Mary and crew

Becky said...

Dancing in the rain with you friend! Thank you LORD! That is one very beautiful baby ;). It was good to hear your voice lat night.

Love you guys!
Becky and all

Charity said...

What a beautiful picture! I'm so happy for you.

Christa said...

Congrats! I'm so happy for you and your family! : )

bristle family said...

Congratulations! We are so happy for you and your family. It was so great to see you at MEND the other day. I am so excited to hear more about this precious little blessing!
Love you,

bristle family said...

Congratulations! We are so happy for you and your family. It was so great to see you the other day at MEND. I am so excited to hear more about this precious little blessing!
Love you,

Ebe said...

*Oh, praise God!!!! THank you Lord for this precious precious baby.

I know this is the beginning of a lot of new emotions, fears, anxiety but we will walk this road with you and will be here for you.
Love you sweet friend.

AH! I'm so happy for you!!!

Sherri said...

I love, love, love the ultrasound picture! There is just something about those grainy black and white images... It is as if you get a sneak peek at God's craftsmanship. My heart just does a little extra pitter-patter of joy. Praising God with you!