MORE ON OUR MIRACLE... THE CONCLUSION:)

I believe I left off with putting our potential embryo adoption on hold because of possible extra costs that we figured we would incur as a result of sweet baby girls extra court hearings... so from here we continue...

We were really fortunate to have an atty recommended from our agency to do our legal work regarding sweet baby girls adoption. I called him after things started to get sticky... Praise God we were led to a Christian atty who himself had adopted 2 children. He heard that Greg was in church work and was gracious to give us a discount... That was such a tremendous blessing. We just had no idea the amount of extra time it would take him and what a ball park area of additional costs that would be.

Part of the trouble was that we really weren't sure how many additional court hearings there would be... and how many we/he would need to be present for. It was sort of a take it as you go sort of deal. And just when we thought we knew the way it was headed there would be an additional court hearing or appeal...it was crazy... thankfully most of this was all done with the agency and not us and our atty. We didn't have to be there... but our heart was certainly on the line...We still sort of waited to see how things would unfold.

The sweet gal, who had the embryos, and I continued to email each other. As we both blogged and shared more of our families, our grief, and our lifes journeys... I felt like we continued to get to know each other more. My heart continued to grow in admiration for her.

I don't really remember exactly when I got a particular email from her, but one day... I think in April I got an email from her that got my heart pumping:) It put adopting her embryos right back on the front burner. She said that she really needed to make a decision on what to do with her embryos. Her desire was for them to be a part of our family, but at the same time she didn't want to put any additional pressure on us. She knew that if we didn't agree to take them that the Lord had someone else for them. She just knew that she had to make a decision on what to do with them. She wanted to give them a chance at life now...

I replied saying that Greg and I would really pray about it and get back to her.

Now anyone who knows me knows it would be a slam dunk decision for me....

And anyone who knows my husband knows he can be a bit of a worrier. I do not mean that in a bad way. It is just a little more a part of his nature. His main concerns were that we truly give them all a chance at life... What if that meant that we had 7 more children?? We both knew that statistically that was almost an impossibility... but at the same time we knew that WITH GOD ANYTHINGWASS POSSIBLE. I guess for me that is what set my mind at ease... if that were to happen it would totally have to be His will. ( Now I don't mean 7 at one time... but eventually after numerous transfers. Any doctors I had spoke with were always very conservative... not wanting to transfer too many at one time. )

We spent a good couple of weeks in prayer and talking it over Greg and I. We also were able to get a ball park figure for our additional costs for sweet baby girl and were really pleasantly surprised by it. And eventually we felt led to GO FOR IT! I notified this sweet girl and she was really happy about it. It was sort of amazing, she felt blessed by us giving her babies a chance at life... a chance that she could not give them right now.

We felt so blessed, honored, and privileged that she would give us this gift. It is a miracle to us. I can not imagine being in her shoes... I just can't. But her gift to us is like none other that we have ever received... we are in awe of her generosity to us. How can you thank someone for giving you the gift of carrying a life. And really to me... I could never take it lightly. I know that she has seen on our blog our family, our kids, our lifestyle...but I just feel that I want to do the very best with this gift we have been given.

The ultimate kicker is just how God brought that all together... how he brought our embryo donor to us. I truly feel like we are so like minded morally in our thoughts on these babies. I can honestly say, that the more I have gotten to know her, the more I love her. She and her twins are in my prayers many, many days and I am amazed by her perseverance and faith in Christ.

So on June 9th 2010 we legally adopted our 7 embryos... We each had our own lawyers from California since that is where we planned to do the transfer. (Yeah, that was the WHOLE reason my honey and I took the trip to California. It was a sweet getaway for us... but we did have HUGE reasons for going out there besides just a vacation:) Man, they are very knowledgeable in all the ins and outs of adopting embryos. Even the adopting process was totally painless for us. I say for us, because I know it could not have felt nearly the same for our donor. What a sacrifice. We are in awe...

Can you believe it? This baby or these babies growing inside of me are adopted? The Lord chose to grow these precious little ones inside of me, after being frozen for 5 years. The Lord found a way to bring two families together from 2 different parts of the country to give these babies a chance at life. It is truly a miracle.

I am nervously looking forward to my ultrasound next Thursday the 19th... I am praying that we will see a little heartbeat or heartbeats:) I know that these little ones that were transferred are totally in God's hands, but I would be lying if I didn't admit that there is some anxiety there... not really anxiety, I guess more just a fear of things ending much sooner than I hope. I know the Lord knows the number of their days... and I just need to rest and trust in His plan. That is easier said than done:)

I will try to post some about the preparation and actual Transfer sometime soon...

I miss posting pictures of the kids... and maybe I can post a picture soon of the embryos we actually transferred:)