GOD IS GROWING SENSITIVITY IN THIS BOY'S HEART

Each week as a part of our spelling curriculum the boys have to write a journal in a letter format to me... then I write them back...I have to preface this with the fact that my boys aren't ever thrilled with writing assignments. Usually, I have to pull teeth to get 6 good sentences out of them... Caleb is our 10 year old, who we nicknamed years ago, the Texas Tornado. He is so full of energy, competitiveness, and hootspa. (I don't really know if hootspa is even a word, but I love it anyways:) By nature, he isn't nearly as sensitive as Louis, but I can see that God is weaving that into his precious little heart. To me this letter is just absolutely precious, sweet, funny at times, and so him. This was Caleb's journal letter for this week... spelling errors and all...

Dear Mom,

I think that the new addition to our family this year is Hope. and i also think that the rabbits are some to. What do you think is our new addition this year? I would say that samuel would be the best addition in the hole world. i would give my legs to have samuel her with us. Would you give your legs to have Samuel her whit us. I really really really miss him. And I know that you miss him so so so so so so so so so much. I wonder what he would be doing by now. If he would be talking or if he would be walking with us. I wish i could have seen him smile. I wish we could at least hold him again. but God will help us through the good times and the bad. i wish so so so badley that he was here with us. And i bet a millon dollars you would wish he was here with us to. I think he would have ben the best brother in the world. and the best son you could ever have. I think that it is all part of Gods plan. I think God will work it out somehow. i love you so so so so so much.

Love, Caleb

This letter just absolutely touched my heart. I love to see his precious child like faith in God and his trust amidst all that he has gone through over the last few years... a move to the seminary away from family, a move away from the seminary and so many great friends, making new friends, losing his brother, losing Faith's baby, getting Hope and the way that is all "up in the air", and the miscarriage. You know after we told the kids about my miscarriage, I was laying on the couch and both Louis and Caleb just came and snuggled up to me. Right away the thought that popped into my head was that someday these little boys will be incredible husbands to some lucky girls. I think that they will have an understanding of women, sorrow, and grief that some husbands now don't have... at least that is part of my prayer through this all.

I love that Caleb seems to be able to just keep walking blindly in faith just trusting that God has a plan and that it will all work out. Maybe I need to just keep taking lessons from my kiddos... they have some great stuff to share. Thanks for listening to my little guy's heart.