THE OTHER NIGHT...

The other evening I decided I needed to take the last lap around the neighborhood by myself. I was sort of at that point, that I wasn't sure I could answer another 20 questions in the next 10 minutes:) I have found my patience growing thinner and my stress level rising as we approach the end of this month... I will welcome November. October is not usually super busy, but it has been nonstop,homeschooling, teaching Sunday School, the kids and I put together bags of fun stuff for little ones to look at during the church services, Wednesday nights and trying to get a meal up there for our family and a couple of other kids to eat before the Wednesday night activities, soccer practices and games, and then the extra things that come up at the last minute, for example... when my "dear" husband told me last night at 10:00 pm that we needed to feed 10 men breakfast up at church today... so the kids and I set to work getting that all done, and needless to say we had our own little minefield right here in our home. Ugh! I am just worn out and a bit weary... the emotions are high and near that point of overflowing my full cup, if you know what I mean.

I am in no way, saying my life is any busier than anyone elses... I know we all are busy these days. Our life seems to cycle through those super busy times, so I am looking forward to it settling down. The crazy thing is with Samuel's birthday around the corner, all I want to do is be "not busy" Do whatever we want to do as a family, whatever we need to do to remember our time with our precious son...

Anyways, back to my walk. I was doing some talking with the Lord ( more like I was doing some talking, venting, and He was listening) over my memories of this time 2 years ago... my heart was weary and my tears were flowing. As I rounded the bend to turn around and come back towards our side of the neighborhood... my eyes were amazed by this beautiful pink sky with a double rainbow right by our neighbors house. The sunset never even shows on that part of the sky... It was the oddest thing. I cut through the yards to try to grab my camera and get some pictures, it was just beautiful. This is what I saw....

This is really how vibrant it looked... I have never seen a rainbow on a pink sky...

Once I got some pictures, I headed back around the house to cut back through the yards to start my walk where I left off, but I was literally stopped in my tracks... it was like the sky was on fire. That whole horizon was ablaze in God's glory... It was like he was reminding me of His promises to NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US... as much as that may have been how it felt 2 years ago... I now can look back and see Him walking us through the past 2 years. And I knew he would walk through this next week with us as well!

It was so beautiful and such a VIVID reminder of the Lord's presence in our daily lives. It was exactly what I needed to see and hear from the Lord. I was so thankful to just have that 10 turned into 30 minutes with him soaking in the beauty of His creation.

So it is with a heart that is feeling a bit heavier as each day passes, that we step forward one day at a time. I am not really sure what the Lord has in store for us for Samuel's birthday. We have a few special things planned. More than anything else this mama just wants to remember His preciousness, every single bit of him, and our time with him. I know it will be hard, but I choose to trust Him, the one who knew my Samuel before he was even created in my womb.