Monday, October 25, 2010

THE OTHER NIGHT...

The other evening I decided I needed to take the last lap around the neighborhood by myself. I was sort of at that point, that I wasn't sure I could answer another 20 questions in the next 10 minutes:) I have found my patience growing thinner and my stress level rising as we approach the end of this month... I will welcome November. October is not usually super busy, but it has been nonstop,homeschooling, teaching Sunday School, the kids and I put together bags of fun stuff for little ones to look at during the church services, Wednesday nights and trying to get a meal up there for our family and a couple of other kids to eat before the Wednesday night activities, soccer practices and games, and then the extra things that come up at the last minute, for example... when my "dear" husband told me last night at 10:00 pm that we needed to feed 10 men breakfast up at church today... so the kids and I set to work getting that all done, and needless to say we had our own little minefield right here in our home. Ugh! I am just worn out and a bit weary... the emotions are high and near that point of overflowing my full cup, if you know what I mean.
I am in no way, saying my life is any busier than anyone elses... I know we all are busy these days. Our life seems to cycle through those super busy times, so I am looking forward to it settling down. The crazy thing is with Samuel's birthday around the corner, all I want to do is be "not busy" Do whatever we want to do as a family, whatever we need to do to remember our time with our precious son...


Anyways, back to my walk. I was doing some talking with the Lord ( more like I was doing some talking, venting, and He was listening) over my memories of this time 2 years ago... my heart was weary and my tears were flowing. As I rounded the bend to turn around and come back towards our side of the neighborhood... my eyes were amazed by this beautiful pink sky with a double rainbow right by our neighbors house. The sunset never even shows on that part of the sky... It was the oddest thing. I cut through the yards to try to grab my camera and get some pictures, it was just beautiful. This is what I saw....


This is really how vibrant it looked... I have never seen a rainbow on a pink sky...


Once I got some pictures, I headed back around the house to cut back through the yards to start my walk where I left off, but I was literally stopped in my tracks... it was like the sky was on fire. That whole horizon was ablaze in God's glory... It was like he was reminding me of His promises to NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US... as much as that may have been how it felt 2 years ago... I now can look back and see Him walking us through the past 2 years. And I knew he would walk through this next week with us as well!





It was so beautiful and such a VIVID reminder of the Lord's presence in our daily lives. It was exactly what I needed to see and hear from the Lord. I was so thankful to just have that 10 turned into 30 minutes with him soaking in the beauty of His creation.
So it is with a heart that is feeling a bit heavier as each day passes, that we step forward one day at a time. I am not really sure what the Lord has in store for us for Samuel's birthday. We have a few special things planned. More than anything else this mama just wants to remember His preciousness, every single bit of him, and our time with him. I know it will be hard, but I choose to trust Him, the one who knew my Samuel before he was even created in my womb.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

praying for you this week dear friend -- knowing that God is going to give you everything you need. Praising God for your rainbow sunset and your sweet family....love mary

Rachel said...

Praying that the next couple of days slow down and that you're able to remember Samuel on his birthday in a way that honors his purposeful life and that you can handle.
Love,
Rachel

Carolina said...

What a beautiful rainbow and precious gift from the Lord! I've read in revelations that God's throne is encircled by a rainbow and I believe He was showing you a little bit of His glory. I know this pregnancy won't be easy, but He will give you the grace and strength to make it through even though it may feel overwhelming at times..

Thank you for sharing, really enjoy reading your posts!

Christa said...

Praying for you and your family this week. What a gorgeous sky and rainbow! Breathtaking!

Tonya said...

WOW! Beautiful doesn't even come close to describing that rainbow and sky. My heart is heavy with you. I'm praying for you and remembering Samuel right along with Grady. Oh, how I wish they were here...

Love you!
Tonya

Anonymous said...

i just love seeing how God is working in your life. thanks for sharing.

connie

Sheryl said...

Sara
those pictures are absolutely beautiful - thank you for sharing those wonderful reminders of God's strength and good works. What an inspiration. We are going through some very rough times in my family right now, and your wonderful posts, and pictures, continue to remind me how great GOD is. Thank you Sara!
Sherie Hopkins

Stacy said...

Hi Sara,
I'm sorry that this week has been so hard for you. The dates on the calendar...each year they seem to come and whereas we welcome them, the reminder of the precious loss is so there. Keep that rainbow before your eyes. How spectacular and amazing is He....it is written all over those pictures. He is glorious and He will carry you through these days. I feel your void with you, but as you know...God fills that void as only He can. Keep resting in Him.

How my heart aches with yours. Praying for you precious friend.

Much love in Christ,
Stacy

Lisa said...

I so needed to read this right now. Thanks for sharing the examples of God's very present help - I was so struck by the photos of the rainbows, I couldn't imagine being there... I'm praying for you... and blessed by all you shared. love ya, Lisa