Sunday, May 9, 2010

6 REASONS I LOVE MOTHER'S DAY:) CONTINUED...

MY SWEET TENDER HEARTED ANNA...
SHE IS SILLY, SUCH A GREAT BIG SISTER, A HUGE HELP TO HER MAMA, VERY COMPASSIONATE, LOVES TO HELP CLEAN THE BATHROOM, GENEROUS, AND HAS SUCH A LITTLE MAMA HEART. SHE BRINGS ME GREAT JOY. I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE YOUNG LADY GOD IS GOING TO FASHION HER INTO.

OH MY JOJO, HE IS MY DELIGHT... TRULY ONE OF THE HAPPIEST KIDS I KNOW, SILLY AS ALL GET OUT, LOVING, LOVING, LOVING, LOVES TO UNLOAD THE DISHWASHER, AND HE IS AT THE STAGE WHERE ALMOST EVERYTHING OUT OF HIS MOUTH MAKES YOU LAUGH OR SMILE.
HE MAKES MY HEART GLAD:)

MY PRECIOUS SAMUEL, SAFE IN OUR SAVIOR'S ARMS TODAY. THIS LITTLE BOY IN AN INSTANT FOREVER CHANGED ME AND MY HEART AS A MOTHER! TODAY, AS I SAT IN SAMUEL'S GARDEN THAT WE PLANTED FOR HIM IN OUR YARD , I JUST SOAKED IN THE FEELING THIS MOTHER'S DAY OF HOW MUCH I MISS MY SON, HOW MUCH MY ARMS STILL ACHE FOR HIM, HOW THE LONGING FOR HIM IN MY HEART HASN'T CHANGED ONE BIT IN THE LAST 18 MOS.

I AM SO THANKFUL TODAY THAT THIS LIFE ON EARTH IS SO SO SO VERY SHORT COMPARED TO THE ETERNITY WE WILL SPEND TOGETHER IN OUR SAVIOR'S PRESENCE.



SWEET BABY GIRL... HERE SHE IS WAVING TO HER PAPA... SEE SHE IS REAL:) THIS LITTLE GIRL ADDS SO MUCH JOY TO A HOME THAT NEEDED HER SO MUCH. WE ALL SAY SHE IS A LITTLE SPICY... FULL OF THE HOOTSPA:) SHE IS SUCH A LOVER, CONTINUALLY COMES UP FOR HUGS AND KISSES.

(I REMEMBER THE DAY WE GOT HER AND SHE REALLY WANTED NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. THE KIDS WERE CRYING ABOUT IT AND KEPT ASKING GREG IF SHE WOULD EVER LIKE MAMA?) THAT DAY AND THOSE FEELINGS ARE A DISTANT MEMORY... WE LOVE THIS LITTLE GIRL WITH ALL OF US... ALL THAT WE ARE ... IN OUR HEARTS SHE IS OURS... WE JUST WANT TO MAKE IT OFFICIAL:)




WE HAD A GREAT MOTHER'S DAY. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR ALL MY KIDS... IN MY HEART I KNOW THAT THERE ARE ANOTHER COUPLE LITTLE SOULS UP THERE IN HEAVEN, THAT WE WISH COULD HAVE STAYED LONGER HERE WITH US... JOEL, THE BABY WE WERE TO ADOPT LAST SUMMER THAT DIED, AND THE BABY I MISCARRIED BACK IN FEBRUARY... I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABOUT 18 WEEKS ALONG HAD THAT BABY STAYED. I KNOW SOME MAY FIND THAT FUNNY THAT I STILL THINK ABOUT THEM OR MENTION THEM, BUT FOR ME LIFE IS LIFE AND I VALUE IT NO MATTER HOW MANY DAYS GOD CHOSE FOR THAT LIFE TO STAY HERE ON EARTH.

WHEN I WAS A CHILD... I KNEW THE THING I WANTED MOST IN LIFE WAS TO BE A MOM. WHEN WE STRUGGLED WITH INFERTILITY FOR A FEW YEARS BEFORE LOUIS ARRIVED AND EVEN NOW AS WE LONG AND WAIT FOR ANOTHER CHILD FROM MY WOMB... I AM REMINDED OF ALL THE WOMEN WHO ARE LONGING TO BE MOMS BUT AREN'T YET, OR THOSE WOMEN WHO ARE MOMS, YET THEIR CHILDREN ARE ALREADY IN HEAVEN... MY HEART HURTS FOR THEM AND GOES OUT TO THEM TODAY. I REMEMBER HOW IT FEELS TO WONDER IF YOU WILL EVER MOTHER CHILDREN HERE ON EARTH.

I AM SO THANKFUL THAT THE LORD CHOSE TO OPEN MY WOMB BACK IN 1996. I AM TRULY IN AWE OF THE LORD'S WORK IN BLESSING ME IN THE WAY HE HAS... AND NOW TO HAVE SWEET BABY GIRL HERE HAS OPENING MY EYES IN A NEW WAY AS TO WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A MOM. I DIDN'T HAVE TO CARRY HER INSIDE OF ME TO HAVE THAT FIERCE DEEP LOVE FOR HER. ALL MY CHILDREN HAVE TAUGHT ME SO MUCH AND I AM SO THANKFUL TO GOD FOR THE INCREDIBLY GIFT THAT EACH ONE IS TO ME.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ALL!




5 comments:

Callie said...

Sounds like you and your family had a grrrrrreat mothers day! We did a bunch of stuff for my mom too! Happy late mothers day Aunt Sarah!

Rachel said...

I'm glad you had a good day, Sara! Your children are beautiful! Even though I don't know you in person, just seeing your pictures over the last 18 months, I can see how much your kiddos have grown up, especially Louis.

They are blessings, aren't they? No matter where they are or how long we had them with us!

Becky said...

What a precious post Sara. I too was thinking about mama's with tender hearts on Mother's Day. I made sure to put a request in with the pastor of our church (o.k. that wasn't too difficult) to mention the mamas that have had loss, those that are longing, and those that have played the mother role. I'm so glad to hear that your Mother's day was a sweet one! Love to you friend! ~Becky

bristle family said...

What a beautiful post Sara! I just loved reading every single word. You are such an amazing person and mom. I was thinking and praying for you over Mother's day. I hope to see you at our next meeting.

Love you,
Michelle

Ebe said...

What beautiful pictures! You are such a wonderful mommy to all your precious ones...

I love the picture of Hope- it's too cute.