Saturday, November 8, 2008

NOT AT ALL WHAT WE PLANNED BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL

Dear Friends and Family,

We honestly can't believe how much our lives have changed in the last 2 weeks. We know that we are forever changed by what we have gone through.

Our sweet son Samuel Mark Hintz was taken to be the Lord before he had a chance to be born here on earth. We are devastated by this loss and just miss him so much. But we do see God's fingerprints all over our experiences over the last 10 days.

I was due on the 28th and the day passed like any other. In fact I remember sitting on the couch just laughing at how much wiggling the baby was doing that night. The next morning I woke up, got the kids breakfast and vacuumed the house. It was then that I thought I wasn't sure if I had felt him move that morning. After seeing the Dr. where we all thought we heard the heartbeat (which was mine... beating really fast) and going to the hospital we realized that he was already gone. We told the kids and then they went to stay with dear friends from the seminary while they induced labor. Samuel was born the next morning the 30th at 9:41. He was absolutely beautiful and perfect. The doctor thinks that it was a cord accident, the cord was around his neck and must have just gotten too tight. Our friends brought the kids back up and we were all so blessed to be able to hold him and kiss him and just inspect all of his perfect parts. He was so precious and such a cutie. There is a national organization that offers their photography services when an infant dies. They are called Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep and they came in to take pictures of us with Samuel. I am so grateful. I know that these are pictures that we will treasure forever.

God was so good to send just the right people to be with us during the labor and delivery. My midwife was such an encouragement reminding us that God would give us the grace to handle each little step one at a time. I still cling to this as we go through each day. There was a nurse that God sent to pray over me when I was completely overcome with grief. He was faithful and continues to be as the Body of Christ lifts us up in prayer. I know that is the only reason we have made it through this time. There are many other details that maybe I will share with time. I wanted you all to see our precious boy Samuel. Below the pictures is what we shared on the back of the church bulletin for his memorial service that we had last Monday. We really wanted everyone to see that we treasured and valued the life that God gave to Samuel. We loved every minute of the 9 months that we had with him.















This is what we had printed on the bulletin for Samuel's memorial service:



We thank you all for coming to celebrate the life of our sweet son Samuel. When we found out we were expecting him, our family rejoiced. We had already been praying for this baby. We are so thankful and feel so blessed that God chose us to be his family and that we had the time that we had with him. Some may think that he never had a chance to live… we know these were the days God had ordained and planned for him. We celebrate all Samuel did with us, his time with us at the seminary, going on family walks, packing and unpacking many boxes, moving here to Oklahoma, trips to Wisconsin and Texas and so much more. Our whole family loved feeling him kick, move and hiccup. We all loved talking and singing to him and the kids and Greg kissing him goodnight. We treasured and enjoyed the 9 months God gave us with Samuel. Though it was so much shorter than we ever would have thought or desired, we just praise God for the special, wonderful life of our son Samuel.


Samuel was prayed for, loved, and much anticipated by
Parents: Greg and Sara Hintz
Brothers and sister: Louis, Caleb, Anna and Elijah Hintz
Grandparents: Gary and Beverly Hintz & Wally and Ann Neumann
Aunts and Uncles: Mark and Jane Neumann, John and Katy Neumann, Josh and Lyndsey Neumann, Theron and Beth Dodson, and Lisa and Dale Quickel
Cousins: Leah, Hannah, Lindsay, Callie, Sophia, Ella, Grace, Will, Sara Beth, Isabella, Titus, Tobias, Ezra, Meaghan and Madison.
And many other dear friends

Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines;
Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food;
Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls-
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my Salvation.
The Lord God is my strength.
Habakkuk 3:17-19











11 comments:

ko said...

Sara~
You don't know me, but I am an old friend of your cousin Ryane. I have a wonderful group of prayer partners her in Caldwell Texas, and we have been praying for you!!! I can not imagine how your family feels. What beautiful pictures! Samuel is PRECIOUS! Please know that we will continue to pray for your family! Read Psalms 42....Bless you
Kyley

pastor's girl said...

Dear Hintz Family,

We love you guys so much and are praying all the time for you.

The Tiews

Don Ray said...

Hi guys,

We have been praying for you and our hearts have been and will continue to be with you. The pictures with you all and Samuel are beautiful and moving. Hannah, too, sends her love to "Anna and her family."

With Christ's love,
The Rays: Don, Stacye, Hannah, and Bethie

Heather said...

Sara~

Thank you for sharing little Samuel with us. He is an absolutely beautiful baby boy! You and your family are in are thoughts and prayers every day. We love and miss you guys so much.

God bless,
Heather

Tom King said...

May the God of all creation be your strength, support and healing amidst the storm. May His Holy Spirit cover you through His Word.

ESV Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called upon the LORD; to my God I cried for help. From his temple he heard my voice, and my cry to him reached his ears.

ESV Psalm 34:17 When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears and delivers them out of all their troubles.

ESV Psalm 18:1 TO THE CHOIRMASTER. A PSALM OF DAVID, THE SERVANT OF THE LORD, WHO ADDRESSED THE WORDS OF THIS SONG TO THE LORD ON THE DAY WHEN THE LORD RESCUED HIM FROM THE HAND OF ALL HIS ENEMIES, AND FROM THE HAND OF SAUL. HE SAID: I love you, O LORD, my strength. 2 The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

ESV Psalm 8:2 Out of the mouth of babes and infants, you have established strength because of your foes, to still the enemy and the avenger.

Susie said...

Sara,

Thank you for coming out of hiding on my blog today. I really was blessed to read Samuel's story. I love that you considered the time you carried him as part of his life. It is! It is so important for me to count that time I had Joshua in me - when he was safe and sound. He was so precious, and still is. God has truly blessed you with a beautiful family - Samuel especially was just a gorgeous baby!

I hope and pray God is your comfort, where there is normally no comfort. Baby loss is not for the faint of heart - but God is faithful. I was so blessed by your verse from Habakkuk - that's EXACTLY how I feel. :)

We do not labor in vain. We will reap a harvest. I guess that's similar too...

With love to all 7 of you! Susie

Corie said...

Hi Sara,
Just found your blog from Susie. I lost my son (5th child also) in January of this year. I will be praying for you and your family as you travel your road of grief. I agree with your title for sure...not at all what we planned but God is faithful. As hard as this time has been, God has been faithful. Faithful to listen and faithful to answer. Would love to talk anytime if you need to. My email is theobs@usa.net
In Christs love...Corie

Bizibit said...

A friend of mine sent me the link to your blog. Your family is beautiful and I will keep you all in my prayers. God will guide you through this......

LucieP said...

I will say many prayers for your family as the days come and I continue to think about you and Samuel. Your story is so touching and they way that you talk about handling it is inspiring. I haven't been in your shoes but I know throughout my last pregnancy, I rejoiced for every day I had with my baby and continued to thank God but at the same time, acknowledged I didn't know what His plan was but that I was thankful for every day spent.

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