Sunday, May 20, 2012

So touched:)


Here is our sweet Levi snuggled up with his new pillow pal... a gift from our embryo donor dad's mother... I know... take that a piece at a time to digest it.

The miracles of our embryo adoption never cease to amaze me. 

How could this sweet, living, breathing baby boy have been frozen for over 5 years...

How could God just breath life right back into him after that long of a period of time...

How could he actually resemble us??? Even though genetically he has another set of parents that gave him his DNA?  (God is so good to give us that sweet little bonus blessing of looking like us:)

How did we get so blessed to be this little guys parents??:)

From the moment that I started contact with our donor mom I have been nothing but amazed by her courage, perseverance, maturity, grace under crazy circumstances, her love for God and her love for her children... (already born to her and still frozen)  She was a widow at such a young age... We could immediately relate to one another on a level of loss... I truly believe God knit our hearts and lives together one email or blog post after another... I can't tell you how much I admire her...

Last Spring while I was in the hospital waiting for Levi to arrive I was contacted by Levi's donor dad's mom.  We too could relate to one another in a way that sort of surprised me... we had both lost our sons...Her son Ryan ( Where our Levi Ryan gets his middle name:) after a long battle with Cystic Fibrosis and our Samuel after 9 short months in my womb. 

When we returned to town this past week there was a package waiting for us at the post office... a package from Levi's donor dad's mom... 

Let me say quickly how blessed I feel that we can have contact with Levi's donor family... It has been nothing but a great experience for us.  (We have an open adoption with Hope as well and really feel like that is what will be best in the long run for her as well)  As scary as it might seem, it really hasn't been for us; not at all! :)

The whole family gathered around and opened the box filled with goodies for each one of us. (even something for Samuel that we will put in his garden:)  Each item had to do with where Ryan grew up.  She also sent us some pictures of Ryan as a young boy.  OH MY GOODNESS!  I have loved comparing Levi to what his biological brother and sister look like, but as much I have thought he looked like us.... He REALLY looks a lot like his donor dad.  

We had a precious time reading the eulogy that was read at his funeral and getting more of a glimpse into Ryan's life.  I can't tell you how precious it is to have the opportunity to have that information.  I know it blessed us, and I am sure it will bless Levi in the future when he is old enough to really understand how he came to be our sweet miracle after such dark days.  

Here we were all crowded around this box, me reading the letter out loud to them... At the very end the note mentioned about not really knowing what Heaven is like but wondering that if even now in that moment, if God could have made it that her Ryan could be holding our Samuel in Heaven just like I was holding the letter now at that moment.  

I totally lost it... Just the thought of it... It made me soooooo happy and sad at the same time.  That mix of joy and pain... I was so sad for her loss, so sad in missing my Samuel, but yet so joyful for the miracles that the Lord has made possible through it all... I was so very thankful for the precious gift that was right in our arms as a result of God creatively bringing our families together...

So as much as Levi is miracle enough... I think the miracles just continue to come into our lives as a result of Levi's embryo adoption.  Only God could work such sweet blessings into our days to bring us to our knees in joyful thanks!  

45 comments:

Heather said...

What incredible blessings you have and continue to have! Praising God with you!

Tesha said...

What a blessing! I really enjoyed learning more of Levi's story. Your family is beautiful inside ans out.

Elizabeth said...

What a beautiful family you have! My sweet Ryan is in Heaven too.

Becky said...

Oh so precious Sara. What an amazing gift!! Love to you guys today!

Pink Slippers said...

His testimony is amazing. AMAZING! Thank you for joining the link up. I remember when you started the journey with the decision to adopt. God is good.

Kathy said...

Wow what a beautiful testimony and gift that Levi is!

PP Admin said...

Oh my goodness...what a beautiful story. I just have tears...tears for the story itself and tears for your willingness to have an open heart for all involved in this process...something not everyone is willing to do. Beautifully said and blessings to your family!

PP Admin said...

Oh my goodness...what a beautiful story. I just have tears...tears for the story itself and tears for your willingness to have an open heart for all involved in this process...something not everyone is willing to do. Beautifully said and blessings to your family!

Anonymous said...

A bit rude saying him looking like you is a blessing when you have an AA daughter. I'm offended on her behalf.

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