Saturday, September 10, 2011

FRESH GRIEF...:(

This morning I got a call from the sweet young lady right here in my town whose precious daughter was born without a heartbeat just 3 weeks ago.  When we got together a couple of weeks ago, I told her, "You call me anytime, day or night, I mean it!" 

And she did just that, and I am so thankful for it... When I picked up the phone, I could hear her few words, between her tears, " I  miss my baby, I want my baby." 

Oh my heart breaks for this young 21 year old girl.  I remember those days so unbelievably clearly.  I remember the utter despair and torment that overtook me many times.... really most of the time.    I remember feeling like NO ONE understood what I was REALLY feeling... or thinking (which was even worse at times)...

So this morning I jumped in the car and met her for coffee in our little town... although we couldn't find a coffee shop open.  We just sat in her car and talked.   It is crazy, she is almost 1/2 my age...yet I feel a closeness to her, just because we share the same heartache.   I can't imagine going through losing Samuel at that age... It makes me so sad for her, the blissfulness of pregnancy that is gone for her now.  It makes me so sad that she doesn't have the distraction of other kids at home.

We talked a lot about the guilt you feel as a mom that you couldn't protect your baby.  We talked a lot about how much differently a daddy feels when they lose their child... We just talked... I ache for her, knowing how much different she will be as a person as a result of losing her daughter. 

I can tell she is a super special girl...  I find myself just loving what a sweet girl she is and wanting to take her pain away... it is so hard... I know that there is no way I can... no one can.  Only the Lord can soften the edges of her breaking heart so help to heal her in time.  I am so glad that He brought her into my life...

Please be praying for Katie if you think of it... the road ahead is a long difficult one that is for sure... But God is faithful... I know He will carry her though it... He already had carried her through the first 3 weeks...

3 weeks closer to Heaven Katie, 3 weeks closer...

3 comments:

Tonya said...

I'm so glad you could be there for her Sara. Praying for her. The heartache is so deep and those first weeks/months are gut wrenching. Love you.

Jennifer said...

I will be praying for Katie! I'm so thankful she has you to talk to as an earthly friend, someone who is a mature believer. Praying for you as well as you minister to Katie.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Will be praying for her...so glad you were there for her