Monday, March 14, 2011

PRAISE GOD... HE IS HERE:)

I AM SO SORRY THAT THIS HAS TAKEN SO LONG....

I WILL POST A LITTLE LATER TONIGHT, BUT RIGHT NOW SOMEONE NEEDS TO BE FED...

LEVI RYAN HINTZ WAS BORN TODAY AT 2:56PM.

6 POUNDS 8 OUNCES.... 19 3/4 INCHES LONG...

OUR HEARTS ARE OVERCOME WITH COMPLETE JOY AND PEACE...

HE IS ABSOLUTELY PRECIOUS AND A COMPLETE MIRACLE AND GIFT FROM GOD!

WE HAVE BEEN BUSY WITH VISITORS AND HE WAS IN THE
SPECIAL CARE NURSERY TONIGHT TRYING TO MAINTAIN HIS TEMPERATURE...

PLEASE PRAY THAT IS NON ISSUE FROM HERE ON OUT...

WE ARE REVELING IN THE GIFT THAT LEVI IS TONIGHT.... I WILL TO POST SOME PICTURES LATER!!!

A FEW PICS OF LEVI


I sort of had to laugh at Lou's little cover up there for Levi... I made a mistake in the last post... he was actually born at 2:58:) He is really long and has sort of thin legs and arms... He feels like a little feather in my arms...



It took him about 45 minutes to open up his eyes and look at us... And he looks absolutely precious and different with his eyes open... I could literally eat him up!!!







I really wasn't that pale... I think Lou did some funky editing on this pic... see eyes closes again:)





I LOVE THE JOY, WONDER ON AND EXCITEMENT ON THE KIDS FACES AS THEY SAW AND WERE DISCUSSING LEVI FOR THE FIRST TIME AFTER SEEING HIM...

LOUIS EDITED SOME OF THESE AND PUT THEM UP FOR ME... WE DON'T HAVE ANY OF THOSE NEW FANDANGLED PHONES SO WE WILL HAVE TO WAIT TO GET HOME TO PUT UP ONES THAT WE AS MOM AND DAD REALLY LOVE OF LEVI:) WHO AM I KIDDING WE LOVE THEM ALL:)


I WILL TRY TO POST A BIT ABOUT HIS BIRTH WHEN I GET A CHANCE... BUT IT MAY BE A FEW DAYS... I WANTED TO GET UP SOME PICTURES FOR YOU ALL... IT IS FUNNY, I THINK HE ACTUALLY LOOKS PRETTY DIFFERENT THAN HE LOOKS IN SOME OF THESE PICTURES. THAT VERY FIRST NEWBORN LOOK... I LOVE IT AND IT GOES AWAY SO FAST... I AM SAVORING IT, KNOWING HE WILL LOOK DIFFERENT ALREADY IN A FEW DAYS... SIGH!!


I HAVE TO TELL YOU, I AM OVER THE TOP IN LOVE WITH HIM... HE MAKES ME JUST MELT LOOKING AT HIM... AS MUCH AS HE ISN'T GENETICALLY OURS... HE TOTALLY SEEMS LIKE HE IS TO ME... HE TOTALLY FITS IN AND LOOKS KIND OF LIKE LOUIS TO ME AS AN INFANT...

HE HAS THE TINIEST BUTTON NOSE:)

HE IS REALLY LONG, BUT KIND OF THIN...

HE HAS THE MOST PATHETIC BUT ADORABLE TINY CRY...

(YOU HAVE TO REMEMBER BOTH JOJO AND SAMUEL WERE 9.6 AND 9.2... THEY SEEM HUGE IN COMPARISON TO HIM:)

ALL THE KIDS WERE THRILLED TO SEE AND HOLD HIM... AND HOPE REALLY DID WELL, I WAS SORT OF WONDERING HOW SHE WOULD REACT TO HIM... :)

HE IS PERFECT TO ME AND FOR ME:) I LOVE SEEING HIM IN HIS DADDY'S ARMS...

HE HAS A FULL HEAD OF HAIR...

NURSING HIM IS LIKE PURE BLISS FOR ME AND PRAISE GOD HE IS DOING REALLY WELL WITH IT SO FAR.

HE HAD TO GO TO THE SPECIAL CARE NURSERY TONIGHT... THIS MAMA HAD HER FIRST MELT DOWN SO TO SPEAK... MY EMOTIONS WERE ALL OVER THE PLACE... HE WAS ABLE TO COME BACK SHORTLY THERE AFTER... HE WAS HAVING TROUBLE KEEPING HIS TEMP UP... BUT IS DOING BETTER WITH IT TONIGHT! THANK YOU GOD! WE ARE PRAYING THAT CONTINUES... THANKS FOR PRAYING FOR THAT WITH US.

TRULY IT FEELS TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE THAT HE IS ACTUALLY FINALLY HERE. WHAT A MIRACLE OF GOD WE HAVE BEEN A PART OF WITH HIM... I LOVE GOD'S CREATIVITY IN SHOWING US HIS POWER AND LOVE FOR US!

I CAN'T WAIT TO SHARE HIS BIRTH STORY WITH YOU SOMETIME SOON...GOD WAS SO VERY GRACIOUS TO ME:)

I CAN NOT THANK YOU FOR PRAYING SO FAITHFULLY FOR THIS LITTLE GUY!





Sunday, March 13, 2011

SUNDAY NIGHT UPDATE

It is 11:40 and Greg and I are just chilling watching some TV before we try to get a little sleep. The nurses think that most likely he is head down at this point... (There was some confusion on doing an ultrasound tonight... I KNOW that was the plan... but apparantly they would have had to call the doc on call in for that... so instead of doing that they just checked to see if it felt like he is head down. Needless to say, he isn't engaged being as he is stilll turning from head up to head down all the time... so it wasn't easy to feel where he was at position wise... that was no fun:(

I so have to say that I have spent so much time trying not to get my hopes up that I really have not prepared for labor at all. This leaves me a little more worried than normal. And of course Samuel's birth leaves me with its fair share of concern. I have already had one good cry. Greg and I prayed together and I am feeling better right now. I think because I haven't really spent anytime preparing for the birth itself... I truly can not believe that we are at that point and in the labor process:) CRAZY!!


I am really thankful that he was head down... Praise God that we didn't have to make a decision on whether or not to try to turn him... the decision was made for us:) Yay God!

We will try to update at some point tomorrow:)

Can't wait to meet our Levi soon....

Saturday, March 12, 2011

ONE LESS HOUR TO WAIT... YAY FOR DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TIME:)

MY SWEET NURSE JUST CAME IN AND SPRUNG MY CLOCK FORWARD AN HOUR... ONE LESS HOUR TO WAIT TO MEET MY BOY LEVI:)

I JUST HEARD A VERY LITTLE BABY SCREAMING IN THE HALLS... THAT HASN'T HAPPENED TOO OFTEN SINCE I HAVE BEEN HERE WHICH IS SURPRISING SINCE -I AM IN THE POSTPARTUM AREA... I HAVE BEEN THANKFUL TO NOT HAVE TO LISTEN TO IT NON-STOP... ONLY BECAUSE HEARING MY NEWBORN BABY'S CRY HAS BEEN SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN LONGING TO HEAR FOR THE PAST 2 1/2 YEARS... GOD HAS BEEN GRACIOUS:)

I HAD A LOT OF CONTRACTIONS TODAY... THEY KEPT ME ON THE MONITOR LONGER EACH TIME BECAUSE I WAS CONTRACTING MORE THAN WHAT THEY WOULD LIKE TO SEE... BUT SINCE THEY DIDN'T HURT MUCH, AND THEY WOULDN'T DO ANYTHING TO STOP THEM, THEY EVENTUALLY JUST TOOK ME OFF LATER. THEY ARE STILL COMING EVERY 7-8 MINUTES... BUT I REALLY DON'T THINK IT IS REAL LABOR... JUST BRAXTON HICKS SINCE THEY AREN'T GETTING ANY CLOSER OR INTENSIFYING AT ALL.

HERE IS WHERE WE ARE AT... AT THIS POINT. AS FAR AS WE KNOW HE IS HEAD UP SINCE THE BPP ON THURSDAY. SO THE PLAN IS TO TAKE ME DOWN TO LABOR AND DELIVERY TOMORROW EVENING SOMETIME. THEY WILL DO AN ULTRASOUND SOON AFTER I GET THERE TO DETERMINE HIS POSITION. IF HE IS HEAD DOWN THEY WILL START ME ON A LOW DOSE OF PITOCIN JUST TO HOPEFULLY KEEP HIM THERE SO THAT HE DOESN'T MOVE AGAIN OVER NIGHT:)

THEN THEY WOULD TURN UP THE PITOCIN IN THE EARLY MORNING LIKE 5 AM. WE WOULD SEE WHERE I AM AT WHEN DR. W. COMES IN MONDAY MORNING AND WE WILL GO FROM THERE.

IF HE IS HEAD UP WHEN THEY DO THE ULTRASOUND TOMORROW NIGHT THEY WILL JUST WAIT AND SIT ON IT TILL MORNING. THE DOCTOR FEELS VERY COMFORTABLE WITH TRYING AN EXTERNAL VERSION (TURNING LEVI TO HEAD DOWN) ON MONDAY MORNING WHEN HE COMES IN. G AND I ARE NOT SURE HOW WE FEEL ABOUT THAT. IF WE DON'T TRY THAT THEN WE WILL BE SET FOR A C-SECTION, HOPEFULLY MONDAY MORNING.

HONESTLY, I DON'T AT ALL CARE HOW IT HAPPENS, I JUST WANT HIM HERE SAFE AND SOUND. I DON'T WANT THE RECOVERY OF A C-SECTION, BUT IF THAT IS WHAT GOD HAS PLANNED I AM TOTALLY COOL WITH IT.

HERE ARE SOME PRAYER REQUESTS:

PLEASE PRAY THAT I DON'T GO INTO LABOR BEFORE THEN... THE DOC ON CALL THIS WEEKEND IS THE SAME SWEET DOCTOR (AHEM.... KIDDING) THAT I HAD THE NIGHT WE COULDN'T FIND LEVI'S HEARTBEAT... HE IS NOT MY FAVORITE AND PROBABLY THE LAST DOCTOR I WOULD WANT TO DELIVER LEVI...

PLEASE PRAY THAT LEVI IS KEPT SAFE THESE LAST HOURS AS WE WAIT FOR MONDAY TO ARRIVE.

PLEASE PRAY FOR GOD TO PREPARE OUR HEARTS AS A FAMILY FOR ALL WE WILL FEEL AS WE WELCOME LEVI INTO THIS WORLD...

PLEASE PRAY FOR GOD TO PLACE HIM IN THE VERY POSITION HE WANTS HIM TO BE IN FOR DELIVERY.

PLEASE PRAY FOR WISDOM AND SKILL FOR THE DOCTORS AS THEY WORK TO BRING LEVI HERE SAFE AND SOUND.

THANK YOU.... THANK YOU ALL FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS!

I THINK I WILL TRY TO UPDATE TOMORROW NIGHT AFTER THE ULTRASOUND ONCE WE KNOW WHAT POSITION LEVI IS IN ...

OH MY.... I CAN HARDLY BELIEVE WE ARE HERE AT THIS POINT... THANK YOU LORD!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

GOD'S FINGERPRINTS THROUGH EMBRYO ADOPTION... MY HEART SWELLS...

TONIGHT MY HEART SWELLS AS I THINK OF THE WEEK AHEAD...

WILL I REALLY BE HOLDING MY BABY BOY IN MY ARMS WITHIN THE WEEK?


TONIGHT MY HEART SWELLS AS I THINK OF SOME EMAILS I HAVE SHARED WITH THE DONOR FAMILY THIS PAST WEEK...

THIS WHOLE EMBRYO ADOPTION HAS HONESTLY BEEN A MIRACLE FROM DAY ONE...
(IF YOU DON'T REMEMBER SOME OF THOSE EARLY DETAILS YOU CAN READ ALL ABOUT IT IF YOU GO BACK TO MY JULY AND AUGUST POSTS FROM LAST YEAR 2010)

I SEE GOD'S FINGERPRINTS ALL OVER THE WHOLE THING... AND THAT HAS GIVEN ME GREAT PEACE...

LAST WEEK I GOT AN EMAIL LETTER FROM THE DONOR DAD'S MOTHER... HER SON RYAN, THE DONOR DAD OF LEVI, WENT TO MEET HIS PRECIOUS SAVIOR JUST 4 1/2 MONTHS BEFORE OUR SAMUEL. IT REALLY WAS SUCH A SWEET LETTER, AND TRULY I HAVE TRIED TO PUT MYSELF INTO THE DONORS FAMILY SHOES MANY TIMES... THIS TOOK ON A WHOLE NEW MEANING TO HEAR HER TALK OF HER SON, LEVI'S BIOLOGICAL FATHER.

I LOVED THAT SHE SAID THAT SHE LOVES SHARING THE STORY OF LEVI WITH OTHERS AND THAT IT IS A TESTIMONY OF OUR INCREDIBLE GOD AND THE CREATIVE WAY HE DEMONSTRATES HIS LOVE... THAT IS SO TRUE... I NEVER COULD HAVE DREAMED OUR FAMILY STORY WOULD INCLUDE THIS PRECIOUS BABY BOY BEING ADOPTED AS AN EMBRYO:)

MY HEART RELATES TO HER AS WE BOTH HAVE LOST OUR DEARLY LOVED SONS...
MY HEART REJOICES WITH HER THAT BECAUSE OF HER SON THIS PRECIOUS BOY HAS HAD LIFE HERE ON EARTH... WILL BRING GLORY TO HIS HEAVENLY FATHER... AND HAS AND WILL BRING HEALING TO PARTS OF OUR HEARTS THAT I THINK MAY HAVE ONLY BEEN ABLE TO BE TOUCHED BY SUCH A MIRACLE... MY HEART IS AMAZED!!


I ALSO HAVE SHARED SOME PRECIOUS EMAILS WITH THE DONOR MOM. WE FOUND OUT FOR SURE THAT JOJO WILL BE A YEAR OLDER THAN LEVI ACCORDING TO CONCEPTION DATE:) JOJO WAS A LITTLE WORRIED THAT HE WAS YOUNGER:) SO THAT MEANS THAT LEVI WAS FROZEN FOR ALMOST EXACTLY 5 YEARS... AMAZING ISN'T THAT? IT IS HARD TO WRAP MY MIND AROUND THE POWER OF GOD TO GROW THIS LITTLE GUY NOW 5 YEARS LATER:)

I GOT TO SEE PICTURES OF THE DONOR MOM'S TWINS WHEN THEY WERE A FEW WEEKS OLD.... OH... MY....GOODNESS.... THEY WERE JUST PRECIOUS, THEY STILL ARE!! WHEN THE DONOR MOM WAS ASKED HOW SHE FELT ABOUT LEVI'S BIRTH GETTING SO CLOSE. SHE SAID THAT SHE FELT LIKE A GOOD FRIEND WAS HAVING A BABY AND SHE WAS EXCITED FOR HIM TO ENTER THE WORLD. SHE CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM. SHE SAID OF COURSE LEVI WILL HOLD A SPECIAL PLACE IN HER HEART, BUT THAT GOD CONTINUES TO GIVE HER GREAT PEACE ABOUT IT ALL AND THAT SHE KNOWS THAT GOD HAS HIM IN THE RIGHT FAMILY.

SHE HOLDS A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART BECAUSE OF HER GIFT OF LEVI TO OUR FAMILY...SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH IN LOSING HER HUSBAND AT SUCH A YOUNG AGE... HER MATURITY AMAZES ME AND WHEN I THINK OF HER AS LEVI'S BIOLOGICAL MOM I HAVE TOTAL PEACE...HER SWEET WORDS MADE MY HEART SWELL...

THIS ROAD OF EMBRYO ADOPTION IS SO AMAZING... I AM ASTOUNDED BY GOD'S GOODNESS TO ALL OF US AND HIS ABILITY TO BRING BEAUTY FROM ASHES TO 2 FAMILIES HE CHOSE TO BRING TOGETHER TO GIVE LIFE TO THIS LITTLE GUY...


ANOTHER BPP TOMORROW... I AM SO THANKFUL THAT THIS LAST WEEK OF PREGNANCY IS PASSING BY QUICKLY AS WE WAIT FOR NEXT MONDAY... WE ARE DAILY TRUSTING IN GOD'S WILL AND HIS PLAN FOR OUR FAMILY:) THANKS FOR PRAYING WITH US:)

TO PROCLAIM THE YEAR OF THE LORD'S FAVOR AND THE DAY OF VENGEANCE OF OUR GOD, TO COMFORT ALL WHO MOURN, AND PROVIDE FOR THOSE WHO GRIEVE IN ZION- TO BESTOW ON THEM A CROWN OF BEAUTY INSTEAD OF ASHES, THE OIL OF GLADNESS INSTEAD OF MOURNING, AND A GARMENT OF PRAISE INSTEAD OF A SPIRIT OF DESPAIR. THEY WILL BE CALLED OAKS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS, A PLANTING OF THE LORD FOR THE DISPLAY OF HIS SPLENDOR.
ISAIAH 61:2-3

Thursday, March 3, 2011

SOME PROJECTS, UPDATES AND A PRAYER REQUEST


Here are two of my crochet accomplishments since learning off of You Tube while I have been in the hospital. I made one like the green one for Levi and then Louis asked that I make a boy and girl one to put in the teen auction this Sunday at church... so that kept me busy for a bit:) Didn't my precious hubby do a good job picking out yarn for me:) I had some good laughs trying to guide him through the yarn aisle by phone... the process was pretty fun, but I think the end result turned out ok. This yarn was sort of hard to work with because you can't see your stitches real easily... but in the same breath... it also really hides your mistakes:)

Levi's BPP turned out just fine yesterday. Only 2 more BPP's before he is born...YAY! The ultrasound tech spent a lot of time just looking at his face for fun... OH my I know I am totally bias, but goodness does he look like a cutie pie. He actually looks sort of chubby in the face. I can't wait to get my hands and lips on those precious cheeks:) His non stress tests have been fine too. I have had to stay on longer at times because of contractions... but they have always fizzled out, which is great, and honestly I slept through some of them:)

I got the chance to talk with my sister just a couple of days ago. I wanted to ask you all to pray for her friend Susan. I have prayed for Susan and her family off and on for years. My heart continues to hurt for her as her family seems to continually be bombarded with challenges and trials. She has a 10 year old son Ben who is wheelchair bound and has Cerebral Palsy. This past year he has had trouble with repeated severe seizures that he has had to be hospitalized for. Please pray that they figure out how to get those seizures completely under control. Her husband lost his job and they have numerous other health issues within their immediate family. Just a few weeks ago they found a tumor on Susan's thyroid gland. She will be having surgery on the 14th, the same day we are set to have Levi.

Would you please pray for God's healing touch on her body, and the rest of her family. I am praying that the Lord would strengthen her each day and that He sustains her as she faces yet another trial. Please pray that if it is the Lord's will there wouldn't be any cancer there. Obviously, I hate that she is going through this all, but a part of my heart is glad to be able to pray for someone else. I am glad to be able to take my eyes off of myself and put them on the needs of others too, especially on the day that Levi will hopefully be born. Susan, please know this mama's heart will be praying in earnest for your mama's heart:)

If anyone else has any prayer needs, please leave them in the comments and I can focus on praying over them this week... if you rather leave it privately you can always email me at gshintz@yahoo.com

Thanks for lifting up Susan and her family before our Heavenly Father... much love all!
GOD IS STILL GOD... AND GOD IS STILL GOOD!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

HERE COMES THE HONESTY...

This may not be at all what people want to read or hear... but it is the gut level truth...

As a pregnant mom just 12 days out from meeting her newest son, her 5th son, face to face... there are a very wide range of feelings and thoughts that are present for me right now.

I want to FIRST AND FOREMOST make sure I let you all know how overwhelmed I still am with joy over the fact that God allowed us to conceive this special, amazing and miraculous little baby boy Levi.

I have feelings at times where I am totally overcome with imagining what it will be like in 12 days when he is born...

First I have real fear over his birth. I want it to be beautiful, peaceful, joy filled. Yet in my heart I don't know where my emotions will be at considering my last experience delivering Samuel was FULL of some pretty traumatic memories. I do not know that I will be able to separate the two fully. Just like many people who have a serious car accident may have some difficulty getting in the car and driving again... I fear giving birth again.

At times, I will sit and can not help but let me mind go to the beautiful precious places of what it might be like to snuggle this precious little boy, to soak in his newborn smell and precious peach fuzz on his face, watching my kids see Levi for the first time, nursing my sweet little guy...All those beautiful warm fuzzy things most people anticipate with such joy.

Then there are totally conflicting times where I almost want to kick myself for letting my mind go to those places where I feel it could be a reality for us. I have had many friends who have literally lost babies hours before their scheduled C-sections...HOURS... Knowing full well, that I do not know God's plans for Levi's life or ours for that matter... it is a matter of surrendering my will to His! I know that His plan may be for this sweet little guy to live a long life with us, and that is the great desire of our hearts... but I need to surrender also to the fact that God's will may not be for that to happen... As much as that would totally break my heart all over again, I would need to surrender to His will if that is the case as well.

There are times like this morning when it takes them 10 minutes to find him on the monitor. Meanwhile the nurse is nonchalantly chatting about her kids $35,000 smile. In my head i am thinking, please just find the heartbeat and we can talk for as long as you want about whatever. But at the same time I just want to scream, "please take him now, he is still alive!" There is a little bit of controlled chaos going on in my mind right now. It wears me out sometimes.

This is sort of a side note... I know I am having all of these sort of conflicting emotions, that I really haven't shared with many at all... I wonder about the kids. Louis has requested that we wait to get all the baby stuff down until Levi is born. We do have some clothes for the first few weeks that we had set aside over a year ago in case we got a drop off baby through our adoption agencies... but all the rest is still boxed up in the attic where we put it the weekend after Samuel died. Last night Jojo stayed up here at the hospital with me while the bigger kids and Hope went to a friends house while Greg had a meeting up at church. At one point he was overjoyed because I had told him that Levi's birthday would be the day after his. He said, "This is the best day of my life." We continued to talk about when Levi may arrive and of course he stated, like he normally does, "I hope Levi gets to live."

Not but 3 minutes later he was just sobbing saying how much he misses Samuel... We spent quite a few minutes talking about it. I never mentioned anything about Samuel, it was all him. I know they are all processing Levi's upcoming birth in different ways... it will be extremely interesting to see how they all do when he is born. I pray that it is a healing and totally different experience for them compared to Samuel's birth.

I also have struggled a bit with wondering how I will feel emotionally after Levi comes. I have had friends warn me or tell me that they are already praying for me regarding that. As much as I know that Levi will NEVER replace Samuel in anyway... I know that just looking this precious baby in the face will evoke feelings I am not sure how I will handle. I know it will bring my loss of Samuel probably right to the surface. I will, Lord willing if all goes well with Levi, be experiencing everything that I didn't get a chance to experience with Samuel. As much as I will be TOTALLY thrilled to be experiencing all of that with Levi, I know realistically that there may be a part of that, that will be so hard. (Please know that I will never take Levi being born healthy for granted, I would be overjoyed... but yet I know there may be more emotions present as well.)

These are my thoughts on that, I know that many will not be able to understand all of that. I know that may make people uncomfortable. I know that people will just want me to be happy. But for me, this is all part of the journey that the Lord has me on. I NEVER asked or desired for the loss of a child to be a part of my life. But this is the path the Lord has us on. I have always prayed for him to lead me and guide me through each day in this journey of life, whether it is a grief filled day, joy filled day or a mix of both.

I really want this birth and experience to be what the Lord would desire it to be. I want to feel fully all that He has for our family to feel and experience through this... that is how He works. I know that Levi's birth could bring great healing to us... but I also know that sometimes you really have to go through that pain to get to that place of healing. Sometimes you have to go through the muck and mire before He places your feet upon the rock to stand firmly. I want our family to be fully open to what the Lord may have planned for us in this whole experience.

My prayer is that even though I know others may not understand all that fully... I just pray that those that will surround us would be understanding and non judgemental in how we journey through the next 12 days and beyond that. That the Lord would remind their hearts that you can not judge how someone walks the path they are on, especially if they haven't walked in their shoes. And that they would deal with us mercifully, no matter how we are feeling at times.

I thank God for the sweet dear friends that have already acknowledged Samuel amidst these last days of waiting and have even told me that He will not be forgotten in the days when Levi arrives. Unfortunately, these ladies either live out of town or will be out of town most likely when he comes... but it is nice to know that even from afar they will be celebrating Levi's birth, if all goes well, and crying tears with me knowing the wide array of emotions I will be feeling in those days and moments.

Ok, enough rambling on and on... it is just a lot to think through and process... Thank you for praying for some of those specific things. I also would love for you to pray specifically with me that Levi would be a mover in the morning. My specific prayers have been that the Lord would allow him to move in the night when I awake and move quickly in the morning when I get up for good. There are many mornings... he won't move for at least 40-60 minutes ... I really try not to panic and I usually find his heartbeat right away on my home doppler... but I would love to just feel him move right away when I awake over the next couple of weeks. I know that may sound so specific and silly, but it would do my heart good:) Thanks friends. I will keep you posted... another BPP tomorrow....


Blessings to you all!